Let me add about fear. June’s fear runs our life. I find joy be going to our comdo outdoor pool alone and swimming laps while I lookup at the sky.
Last I went, june was in tears when I came back. “You’re the only family I have” she said. Every one in her own family is dead. And we ar somewhat alienated – at least geographically, more likely emotionally – from our kids, who are scattered all over North America.
So I can’t get a swim without an argument or anxiety
