Of course I’m caged. Can’t go on retreats anymore, can’t do solo retreats where it’s me and God. I need to stay close to home Cause my best friend has balance issues and falls.
There’s a high cabin on a mountain near here run by Appalachian mountain club. I used to fantasize about booking it so I could hike up there and be alone. But that’s out of the question.
But some of that desire to get out there and get lots of spiritual consolation is spiritual gluttony. I don’t get a lot of thst spiritual consolation doing my Cp here in the house. So caged in a way, but then maybe not. Of course self examination is necessary to look out for self pity and the bondage of self.