My awareness examen this week ” wishing well to others, loving God in them, allowing God to love through me.” is very revelatory. I grew up where my ethnic group wasn’t the in group here, nor was it in the land they came from. We learned to be good workers, valued as such. Without drawing attention to myself, I became very competitive excelling intellectually. Of course I put this at the service education for others especially those who had no one to advocate for them. But then it became a painful habit, being competitive ruled my life to the point that it was never enough. The positive side of the coin evaluating the situation or circumstances became the flip side of being judgmental. Memories of hurting others intentionally or unintentionally revealed an unforgiving attitude/habit. A wakeup call to be merciful for “we are not own; we belong to everyone else.” Consenting, consenting….
