October 14, 2024
“Picturing myself with Jesus as I receive his loving gaze from deep within.”
This took me back to a revealing exercise in one of my training sessions where wewere asked to play at the age of 6. My response was to sit on the side with a book in my lap watching everyone else do the same thing. This fit my age 6 self. For by then I had assumed a position of seeing that everyone one of my siblings was okay. If there was time I would engage in my favorite thing, reading. These days, this is my little group of ten women, years and years later.
These weeks in discussions about changes ten of us are in the process of searching for. I recall myself saying : “We can not lose anybody.” Our facilitator is the only one who hears with curiosity.
Today, Canadian Thanksgiving, the first reading from Colossians 3:12-17, we are addressed as God’s chosen, holy, beloved, with these instructions: clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, meekness and patience. Both humility and patience, my present challenges.
The Gospel from Matthew: “Ask and it will be given to you; search and you will find; knock and the door will be opened for you.
For everyone who asks will receive, everyone who searches will find, and for everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.”
So as this weeks continues as an introduction to C.P., with gestures, I attend, I allow, I accept, I await, consenting, to the pull of the loving gaze of Jesus, down, down, deep, down, down, deep….. allowing Jesus’ gaze to penetrate my bruised ego…. the me: chosen, holy, beloved.
